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emberserker) wrote2020-04-14 01:49 pm
emberserker) wrote2020-04-14 01:49 pm
IC notes
[These notes are laying on Anna's desk, written on a mix of the fancy paper from the machine and the default paper.]
WHAT.
I was this close! I was right there! She was mine!!!!! I was happy there, happy for the first time in years, and then
This Professor is going to suffer for this. Mark my words today. My victory, the only thing that could ever make things right for me... I will get it back.
-
Not everybody here is entirely useless, but that might change. At least most of them are trying. Some just prefer to stand around and be infuriating. I don't know if I could take any of them without magic or weapons. All right, I have to think. I have to plan. Something. That should come easily to me. It always has before. I just need the data and it'll be no problem.
But my mind always comes back to her. Ernesta... However you escaped me, you won't do it again.
(P.S. Look into all this that Rin's talking about re: GRANBELM being familiar. Was her world's magic sealed? How is it different from this place?)
-
Obstacles?
Jasper - Clearly powerful. Obstinate nuisance. Not certain if she's useful but I can't stand her, and that's on top of being a living version of a magic stone. Unsure I could kill her as things stand.
Dr. Birkin - Infuriating. Intelligent, would probably see through a trap. Doesn't seem to care much for escaping.
Rose - Seems like a happy idiot, but very serious about protecting humans. What is going on with her? I know my gems, and that is the clearest rose quartz I've ever seen. They're not that brilliant. I suppose the insipid personality fits something that's only good for love spells, though.
Aela - If she really has defeated that many creatures, she's as strong as she looks. Seems more of a useful ally than an obstacle at this point.
Angel - Useless tool.
Professor
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Moon phase: unknown
Year: 2020
Angel's being fed information from the Professor. She's incredibly naive. I doubt she really wants to help everyone live peacefully forever. Does she really think that's even possible? I have something to get back to.
Speaking of which, she claims we'll be sent back to the instant we were taken if we succeed. At least I won't have to worry about that.
-
There is an elevator behind the vault door. I suppose that would explain something, though whether it goes into the plateau or up to the surface, I can't tell. It's difficult to see.
The axe from my home was in the prize machine. Really now. Perhaps I shouldn't call it my home... no, when I kill her, everything will return to normal. Mother won't need to forgive me. None of it will have happened in the first place.
Ernesta... I can't wait.
-
Dr. Birkin's right.
Of course I still can't stand the man, but he's right. Why haven't I killed anyone? I wanted to say it was because I was planning, because I didn't want to act recklessly. But that hasn't mattered in months, has it? I've still made plans, but when they all failed... I heard something. I felt something. I feel it in here, but it's more like an echo, an impression. What is wrong with me? Don't I still want to get out of here and claim my victory?
Of course I do. I want to see her suffer. I want to see her drown in a pit of despair where she belongs. I want to take everything back.
I will.
-
You're wrong, Aela, but I appreciate the compliment. Of course I don't want you all hearing whatever's in that envelope. But like they say, someone else will act soon. I'm sure of that much.
-
That "movie night" was the largest waste of time I've ever suffered.
-
Someone did kill, and took out Aela at that. We've found that the elevator goes down to a courtroom (really now?), but what about up? It's clearly an option. Remember that for later.
Líf had important business, as I do, and something no one could know. I won't deny I was tempted by the same. It's not as if it matters now. Only the coming weeks do. Still, the letter he gave me... Someone finally recognizes all my work, my real destiny as a mage, and then falls to this sort of thing. Failure like any other. ...I oughtn't obsess on it.
-
I knew he was a showoff, but moving everyone a day into the future just to renovate the laboratory??? This is ridiculous. At least, that's the most likely theory I have for why we've all lost a day... what on Earth are his priorities?
-
Angel won't tell us exactly what's going on, of course, but she mentioned she knew about my time travel theory. Well, it makes sense she'd be listening in on us, just as her employer listens in on her. She says he's always been intent on proving his abilities and showing them... not that I can blame him for that, but I certainly can for everything else. But she only learned he was "intent on murder," her words, in here. Where did they know each other before? She seems to be part machine -- did he make her? Probably not, that's just ridiculous. There has to be some limit here.
-
We're another down. Damien attacked Angel, and the Professor took over her body and killed him. If he didn't make her mechanical parts, he certainly knows how to use them. Do they go into her brain? I don't want to sympathize with that girl, of course. She's one of his, after all, and I've never trusted her, even if she does tend to let things slip. But something feels strange when I think about what happened with her being manipulated to a point and then being controlled. It's like what Mother said.
No, what Mother said was rubbish. I'm fine.
I need to work on something.
-
I am never making IKEA furniture again.
Piers and Alice are down. A vampire, really? I'm more surprised that it's more than just her home that's got them. Some of the others are distressed, of course. But an opponent down is an opponent down, and once someone kills, they're an opponent. That's just how this works.
Compelled to kill...? It works out to the same thing in the end.
The Professor says that he isn't doing these things for no reason. Apparently, we just don't see the reason. Whatever it is, what he wants can't be research. Only death. Is that what's "powering" that thing?
-
So it isn't time travel. That's something to note. What is it he's doing? What are the limits of his machines, if he can use them to imitate magic? True magic, not the bare traces we get outside of the illusionary world? If I could do things like this...
-
I feel like I'm not being pushed to act anymore. It's the same as a few weeks ago. That feeling is just gone. But I'm not losing focus. I cannot fail in here. I'll go back, I'll kill Ernesta, and things will be as they should be.
Obstacles
Jasper
Dr. Birkin
Rose?
Father Kotomine
Ema
Angel
Professor
Rhea proposes that not all abilities are sealed, at least not completely. Keep this in mind. We tested it out. I don't feel much different, and yet something inside me is reacting... Is it the stone?
-
The vending machine is mocking me and I hate everything in this place. I'm seeing her everywhere I go.
Grant Clare's greatest wish? No. She doesn't know what she needs. She wants the three of us to be happy together again -- she said as much. But I can't forgive Ernesta, no matter how she says everything is for my own good.
So I won't act this week. But I won't lose sight of my goal.
-
Seteth and Zelos. It's just a pattern now. Once a week instead of per month, and this time the deaths are guaranteed.
Everyone knows about the injury now. I won't go into it if they ask. Honestly, at this point I doubt they will. It was overshadowed by everything else going on in there. But Rhea told me later that I should take her heart -- her stone -- if she dies, because she's given me her blood.
I almost feel guilty. People like Rin or Rhea do what they do because of some greater good, even if they'd each call the other selfish. Everything I've done was just for me and my life. I'm sure none of them would forgive me. But does it matter? Whether Mother is alive or dead, what I did wouldn't have happened if not for Ernesta. So once I kill her in GRANBELM, she'll be erased from history, and Mother will be fine, and she'll finally approve of me. Whether or not she believes I was destined for greatness, I know I was. And I'll prove it.
That feeling, or lack thereof. Before he died, Seteth said it must just be that my goal isn't here and magic isn't here, so I'm disconnected from what I want. That must be it. I'd almost thank him if I could.
Nira asked if anyone else was part rock. Honestly, I almost told her. I doubt that would have gone well.
-
[A drawing of a skeleton holding a scroll and a sword.]
Found with the coordinates. It was just a clue to those, of course, but I do have to wonder if it means anything further.
-
Never trust anyone who insists on investigating something you're already looking at. If I hadn't stuck around, I doubt she'd have said anything helpful at all. Ugh, what a disaster. How many hours was that? If this is what they do without Ema, it's a miracle any of us are still alive.
Dr. Birkin and Jasper question my resolve. If I'm so determined, why haven't I killed anyone? I'm not afraid. I have drive. But that feeling, that push behind me has been gone since we got here. I care about magic again. No, I think I even care about things that aren't magic again. Sewing and cooking and studying and playing around, the things I used to do.
What's happening to me?
I can't let myself fall back like that.
More blood. I wonder how it reacts to the stone I absorbed. Could I use it to give power to my old stone again, too? Well, what's left of it. When whatever happened to our bodies is reversed...
-
Oh, now he gives us bandages and syringes.
-
No. No, no. nononoNONONONONONONONONONONONO.
Made into an obstacle? A puppet like Angel? Destined to die? That's impossible. This is a lie. But if it's true -- what did Therion say? "You'd think that would be the point?" And what Rin had to say about the seal... Who did win the last GRANBELM? Why hasn't there ever been a Princeps Mage? Was Mother right?
Impossible.
That's it. Even if I don't feel that push anymore. Even if I feel other things now, care about other things again. It doesn't matter. I won't lose my resolve. I will get out of here. And I'm going to make certain none of this happens. I'll destroy Magiaconatus myself if I have to.
-
Well. It's done.
You know, there was a time I'd have thought impersonating the dead might have crossed the line. But really, I haven't been interested in playing fair in some years now. It was really too late for me before I even arrived in this place. If the reason I started to care in here truly was because I was away from there, because it didn't have a hold on me, then that doesn't matter. I'm back on that path regardless. Yes, that means it's mine. My choices are mine, they've always been. They have to be.
I almost want to write something like the rest of the dead. Perhaps I owe them writing my own letters, after forging Líf's handwriting from the one he left me. But there's no point in that. I'm not going to fail. If I did... I'd probably just ask why things turned out this way, anyway.
WHAT.
I was this close! I was right there! She was mine!!!!! I was happy there, happy for the first time in years, and then
This Professor is going to suffer for this. Mark my words today. My victory, the only thing that could ever make things right for me... I will get it back.
-
Not everybody here is entirely useless, but that might change. At least most of them are trying. Some just prefer to stand around and be infuriating. I don't know if I could take any of them without magic or weapons. All right, I have to think. I have to plan. Something. That should come easily to me. It always has before. I just need the data and it'll be no problem.
But my mind always comes back to her. Ernesta... However you escaped me, you won't do it again.
(P.S. Look into all this that Rin's talking about re: GRANBELM being familiar. Was her world's magic sealed? How is it different from this place?)
-
Obstacles?
Jasper - Clearly powerful. Obstinate nuisance. Not certain if she's useful but I can't stand her, and that's on top of being a living version of a magic stone. Unsure I could kill her as things stand.
Dr. Birkin - Infuriating. Intelligent, would probably see through a trap. Doesn't seem to care much for escaping.
Rose - Seems like a happy idiot, but very serious about protecting humans. What is going on with her? I know my gems, and that is the clearest rose quartz I've ever seen. They're not that brilliant. I suppose the insipid personality fits something that's only good for love spells, though.
Aela - If she really has defeated that many creatures, she's as strong as she looks. Seems more of a useful ally than an obstacle at this point.
Angel - Useless tool.
Professor
-
Moon phase: unknown
Year: 2020
Angel's being fed information from the Professor. She's incredibly naive. I doubt she really wants to help everyone live peacefully forever. Does she really think that's even possible? I have something to get back to.
Speaking of which, she claims we'll be sent back to the instant we were taken if we succeed. At least I won't have to worry about that.
-
There is an elevator behind the vault door. I suppose that would explain something, though whether it goes into the plateau or up to the surface, I can't tell. It's difficult to see.
The axe from my home was in the prize machine. Really now. Perhaps I shouldn't call it my home... no, when I kill her, everything will return to normal. Mother won't need to forgive me. None of it will have happened in the first place.
Ernesta... I can't wait.
-
Dr. Birkin's right.
Of course I still can't stand the man, but he's right. Why haven't I killed anyone? I wanted to say it was because I was planning, because I didn't want to act recklessly. But that hasn't mattered in months, has it? I've still made plans, but when they all failed... I heard something. I felt something. I feel it in here, but it's more like an echo, an impression. What is wrong with me? Don't I still want to get out of here and claim my victory?
Of course I do. I want to see her suffer. I want to see her drown in a pit of despair where she belongs. I want to take everything back.
I will.
-
You're wrong, Aela, but I appreciate the compliment. Of course I don't want you all hearing whatever's in that envelope. But like they say, someone else will act soon. I'm sure of that much.
-
That "movie night" was the largest waste of time I've ever suffered.
-
Someone did kill, and took out Aela at that. We've found that the elevator goes down to a courtroom (really now?), but what about up? It's clearly an option. Remember that for later.
Líf had important business, as I do, and something no one could know. I won't deny I was tempted by the same. It's not as if it matters now. Only the coming weeks do. Still, the letter he gave me... Someone finally recognizes all my work, my real destiny as a mage, and then falls to this sort of thing. Failure like any other. ...I oughtn't obsess on it.
-
I knew he was a showoff, but moving everyone a day into the future just to renovate the laboratory??? This is ridiculous. At least, that's the most likely theory I have for why we've all lost a day... what on Earth are his priorities?
-
Angel won't tell us exactly what's going on, of course, but she mentioned she knew about my time travel theory. Well, it makes sense she'd be listening in on us, just as her employer listens in on her. She says he's always been intent on proving his abilities and showing them... not that I can blame him for that, but I certainly can for everything else. But she only learned he was "intent on murder," her words, in here. Where did they know each other before? She seems to be part machine -- did he make her? Probably not, that's just ridiculous. There has to be some limit here.
-
We're another down. Damien attacked Angel, and the Professor took over her body and killed him. If he didn't make her mechanical parts, he certainly knows how to use them. Do they go into her brain? I don't want to sympathize with that girl, of course. She's one of his, after all, and I've never trusted her, even if she does tend to let things slip. But something feels strange when I think about what happened with her being manipulated to a point and then being controlled. It's like what Mother said.
No, what Mother said was rubbish. I'm fine.
I need to work on something.
-
I am never making IKEA furniture again.
Piers and Alice are down. A vampire, really? I'm more surprised that it's more than just her home that's got them. Some of the others are distressed, of course. But an opponent down is an opponent down, and once someone kills, they're an opponent. That's just how this works.
Compelled to kill...? It works out to the same thing in the end.
The Professor says that he isn't doing these things for no reason. Apparently, we just don't see the reason. Whatever it is, what he wants can't be research. Only death. Is that what's "powering" that thing?
-
So it isn't time travel. That's something to note. What is it he's doing? What are the limits of his machines, if he can use them to imitate magic? True magic, not the bare traces we get outside of the illusionary world? If I could do things like this...
-
I feel like I'm not being pushed to act anymore. It's the same as a few weeks ago. That feeling is just gone. But I'm not losing focus. I cannot fail in here. I'll go back, I'll kill Ernesta, and things will be as they should be.
Obstacles
Jasper
Dr. Birkin
Rose?
Father Kotomine
Ema
Angel
Professor
Rhea proposes that not all abilities are sealed, at least not completely. Keep this in mind. We tested it out. I don't feel much different, and yet something inside me is reacting... Is it the stone?
-
The vending machine is mocking me and I hate everything in this place. I'm seeing her everywhere I go.
Grant Clare's greatest wish? No. She doesn't know what she needs. She wants the three of us to be happy together again -- she said as much. But I can't forgive Ernesta, no matter how she says everything is for my own good.
So I won't act this week. But I won't lose sight of my goal.
-
Seteth and Zelos. It's just a pattern now. Once a week instead of per month, and this time the deaths are guaranteed.
Everyone knows about the injury now. I won't go into it if they ask. Honestly, at this point I doubt they will. It was overshadowed by everything else going on in there. But Rhea told me later that I should take her heart -- her stone -- if she dies, because she's given me her blood.
I almost feel guilty. People like Rin or Rhea do what they do because of some greater good, even if they'd each call the other selfish. Everything I've done was just for me and my life. I'm sure none of them would forgive me. But does it matter? Whether Mother is alive or dead, what I did wouldn't have happened if not for Ernesta. So once I kill her in GRANBELM, she'll be erased from history, and Mother will be fine, and she'll finally approve of me. Whether or not she believes I was destined for greatness, I know I was. And I'll prove it.
That feeling, or lack thereof. Before he died, Seteth said it must just be that my goal isn't here and magic isn't here, so I'm disconnected from what I want. That must be it. I'd almost thank him if I could.
Nira asked if anyone else was part rock. Honestly, I almost told her. I doubt that would have gone well.
-
[A drawing of a skeleton holding a scroll and a sword.]
Found with the coordinates. It was just a clue to those, of course, but I do have to wonder if it means anything further.
-
Never trust anyone who insists on investigating something you're already looking at. If I hadn't stuck around, I doubt she'd have said anything helpful at all. Ugh, what a disaster. How many hours was that? If this is what they do without Ema, it's a miracle any of us are still alive.
Dr. Birkin and Jasper question my resolve. If I'm so determined, why haven't I killed anyone? I'm not afraid. I have drive. But that feeling, that push behind me has been gone since we got here. I care about magic again. No, I think I even care about things that aren't magic again. Sewing and cooking and studying and playing around, the things I used to do.
What's happening to me?
I can't let myself fall back like that.
More blood. I wonder how it reacts to the stone I absorbed. Could I use it to give power to my old stone again, too? Well, what's left of it. When whatever happened to our bodies is reversed...
-
Oh, now he gives us bandages and syringes.
-
No. No, no. nononoNONONONONONONONONONONONO.
Made into an obstacle? A puppet like Angel? Destined to die? That's impossible. This is a lie. But if it's true -- what did Therion say? "You'd think that would be the point?" And what Rin had to say about the seal... Who did win the last GRANBELM? Why hasn't there ever been a Princeps Mage? Was Mother right?
Impossible.
That's it. Even if I don't feel that push anymore. Even if I feel other things now, care about other things again. It doesn't matter. I won't lose my resolve. I will get out of here. And I'm going to make certain none of this happens. I'll destroy Magiaconatus myself if I have to.
-
Well. It's done.
You know, there was a time I'd have thought impersonating the dead might have crossed the line. But really, I haven't been interested in playing fair in some years now. It was really too late for me before I even arrived in this place. If the reason I started to care in here truly was because I was away from there, because it didn't have a hold on me, then that doesn't matter. I'm back on that path regardless. Yes, that means it's mine. My choices are mine, they've always been. They have to be.
I almost want to write something like the rest of the dead. Perhaps I owe them writing my own letters, after forging Líf's handwriting from the one he left me. But there's no point in that. I'm not going to fail. If I did... I'd probably just ask why things turned out this way, anyway.